I can feel it.  It is getting stronger and I can feel the trickle of a flame that wants to explode.  I am doing everything I can to keep it quiet and silent.  My heart races and my mind goes a mile a minute faster than it normally does.  This fire engulfs me and lights me from within and NOTHING will be able to put this out.  Every day, I struggle.  It is like trying to fight an instinct that you were never taught but you know you just have to do it.  You don’t even now why.  This force within me diminishes some but never is restrained.  It settles and waits for the best time to light up again.  It is not generated by thought or action.  It is generated by something more powerful.  I can feel my heart pounding and growing larger just as I type this now.  This fire empowers me in such a way that doubt cannot utter one word.  Questions don’t need to be followed by answers.  I don’t know how to take the next step, but I know it must be taken.  Have you ever felt this way?  Has something ever risen from inside your soul that trying to explain it leads you no where?  This fire is from my most sacred place — my soul.  It has waited for the right time to rupture and consume me in the flood of light that will illuminate everything I am.  Everything I was born to be.  The journey I must take with the destiny and fate along for the ride.  Do you know how to tell when people have the light burning inside their soul?  Watch their eyes.  They “light up” for a reason.  That is your first glimmer of the fire burning within that hasn’t yet found a way to burn through.  What is YOUR fire?  What keeps you up at night?  What are you trying to hide from that somehow, still finds you?  There is a reason why this happens…because this fire…this burst is who you really are and no amount of water, dirt, or foam will ever put it out.  It will flare up again.  It will set off a chain reaction that will detonate and create such momentum that people will be required to stand back and just watch.  Like watching a building burn.  There is no point in trying to put something that hot, that blazing out.  It becomes a waste of time and effort.  Do you feel it yet?  The warmth of the flame that is starting to grow bigger every day?  Do you KNOW what you have to do next?  Of course, you do.  You have to let it breathe.  It must be given life.  Your constant attempt to squash enraging ember does nothing.  You know it and I know it.  Just stop.  The fire within grows stronger and more powerful each time you try to push it aside and ignore it.  You are not going to win this battle.  I won’t either.  Watch out…I too hot to touch…ready for what happens next.  Simple put, I am a “Girl on Fire” by Alicia Keys

Michelle A. Homme 2014 ©