Have you ever hoped for something, not even really sure that it will come and when it does, that it is actually more than you ever thought it could be? I remember when my husband was first thinking about moving us from Southern California to Nebraska and what that life-changing event would be for me. I mean, I seriously could not tell you where Nebraska was on the map. So, I recall making a pro-con list to help me see the things that would affect my decision and how my life would play out. The con list had many things on it – the weather, away from family, no friends, no job, the list went on. Then, I looked at the pro side of the list – other than my husband’s name, I could not find anything else that would be good about this move, because I did not have any good “for sures” about moving. But we did. We moved in January, I was 4 months pregnant, and Mike travelled 3 weeks of every month. I knew no one. I was homesick and could only clean a one-bedroom apartment so many times, you know? As I reflect on those days now and think about where I am now, I have more than I ever could have hoped for. My life has not been perfect by any means, and I have made my share of mistakes. But I have a husband who loves me, three wonderful sons, a job, a place to live, a little money, and people who love me. I have a dream (thanks, MLK Jr) that I am following and listening to and letting my heart be my guide for the first time in my life. I have this blog and readers from across the globe that allows me to express myself in such a simple way. Friends have come out of the woodwork as I have let the world see more of me – the true me – in more every day aspects of my life. I give to those around me and love every minute of it. I have a Rock – who is there unconditionally and I cannot imagine her not being here as she helps me be better every day. I have you – whoever you are – and the aspiration to give more and make a difference in people’s lives. This life (so far) has not been what I hoped for…it has been so, so much more. What have you hoped for? Has it comes true? Why or why not? And it continues.
Michelle Homme 2011 ©